But, I tend to change the words.
"So, tell me what I want...
Yeah, tell me what I want...
I really really really wanna...."
And I pause hopefully, waiting for some melodious voice to fill in the answer.
It never does, because what I want won't fit into so few bars of music.
I wanna read, write, sing, speak several languages fluently, travel all over the world, stay curled up at home, have a really cool job in a big company, be a spiritual counselor in my own store, bake cake and eat it. I wanna ride horses, have dogs and cats and bees and birds and squirrels and wolves and white tigers. I wanna dive into warm water, swim in mountain lakes, drive fast cars, drive cars fast (tee hee), take the light rail to work, walk to work, work from home, meditate all day long, dance half the day away, play the music loud, sit in silence. I wanna hang out with friends, with family, have coffee in small groups and give large parties. Oh yes, and I wanna play videos games, bake bread, sew skirts, crochet scarves, read the runes, reconcile bank statements, file books, meet authors, go to pagan festivals, attend CONS, grow flowers, have an assistant, study theology and philosophy and psychology and archeology, live on a boat, live on a farm, live in a commune, have a townhome exactly where my apartment is located, have all the money I'll ever need, not need to have money. I wanna walk through the wildflowers on a snow covered mountain next to the beach. With a unicorn. And Wesley Crusher from Next Gen.
In short, I want it all! And given the way we've "tamed" the time/space continuum, that would take many life-times.
So the question becomes not only, what do I want now? Not even, what do I need now? But, what, in a year from now, will I still be happy I've done?
And it appears going back to school for anything! is not currently in my plans. I can daydream about studying Theology in Wales (and wouldn't that be AWESOME? There's even a course where it's taught in Welsh!) Also out is getting an accounting degree and going into forensic accounting - the ultimate puzzle job, in my opinion. They would both be interesting and very involved careers, but... all that time and energy, I would rather spend with friends, and husband, and family, and pets. And nature and spirits, books and video games. Oh yes, and music.
So, that's two things put on the "next life" list. Or possibly a previous one. Only 553 thousands more things to choose from.
I hope you have a great day!