Saturday, October 29, 2016
I feel like I have been either going or stopping; either head down or staring blankly at my "to do" list. And they're all things I WANT to do, things to accomplish in order to be the me I want to be, to open the possibilities.
But I am once more caught up in the whirlwind of a thousand choices and only so much daylight. Which is actually literal, because it feels like I have to work twice as hard to be connected when the sun goes down.
And I think it has been many many days since I have had downtime to myself. All to myself. (driving does not count - one has to be aware of other people when driving. I really want to think only of myself.)
So today, I am going to go back to the system of 15 minutes. Just do something on my list for 15 minutes. Then I can rest and read and stare at the wall.
I am going to practice balancing, being both sides of myself. 15 minutes at a time.
I hope you have a great and totally YOU day!
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Looks like it's time to be startin' somethin'!
Laguz is the rune of beginnings, the rune of that rush that happens when the ball starts rolling; the birthing rush after the water breaks and there's no stopping the momentum.
OK, sounds a little scary, but we're ready for this. We know our tools, we know our truths, and besides, we're the ones putting things in motion!
What is it that's ready to go? What projects, ideas, desires have just been waiting for the right time? Could this be the time?
Keep breathing and out your best foot forward. Ready? Set? Go!
I hope you have a great week.
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
Wednesday, October 12, 2016
Taiwaz is the rune of expediency, of making decisions in an unemotional, for the good of the whole fashion.
It follows, then, that TaiwazR is about taking a different approach to decision making.
If there is a thought or decision that brings the headache and the frustration and the "I don't know what to do!" perhaps it's time to decide smaller.
What is the right, truthful, happy choice for today?
What is the best feel for right now?
What is the short term beneficial option?
Because maybe the long term is still waiting for today's choice. Maybe choosing for happiness today is the best way to ALSO have happiness next year.
However we choose, I hope you have a great day!
Friday, October 7, 2016
Today I attended a class on energy work and had the interesting experience of having my very being ridiculed and demeaned.
Now, it was not me personally who was the target. But the class presenters have their own unique perceptions about metaphysical practices and about happiness.
Yup. I paid money to be told my work is useless.
And as Icona Pop says, "I don't care. I love it."
I am not Happy because someone else thinks it's a good idea. I am not a Happiness Practitioner because it's universally accepted or because I want to make good use of a college degree. I do not use the New Age, Metaphysical Wiccan practices because they're popular.
I do it all because it's right for me. It IS me. All of it. Nature and crystals and grounding and advising in protection and manifesting and knowing that happiness is my choice and my right.
And I fully believe that others want to be happy. I believe everyone wants to be happy. We may have trouble believing it's an acceptable way of life. After all, the American Dream doesn't say "A white picket fence and 2.5 kids, happily." Or even "2.5 happy kids". And as one of the presenters pointed out, saying we want to be happy when we grow up evokes the response: "No, what do you want to be?"
But I believe in Happiness, that it is a force like Love, and that everyone can be it.
And so today, I reaffirmed my happiness. I made the class all about me, for me, taking only the information I resonated with, and letting everyone else have their own opinions.
Because everyone does get to have their own opinions. I accept that.
I accept that everyone has their own perceptions.
I accept everyone.
Accepting people doesn't mean I believe what they believe. It certainly doesn't mean I care about their opinions. It just means I accept them.
Cuz what I think, feel, believe, and do is all about me. It's what is right for me. Happiness IS each person believing what is right for them. (At least, for me it is.)
So today I am practicing being Happy. By accepting others, and cheering their choice. Because their belief is their Happiness, even if they don't believe in it.
I hope you have a great day!
Thursday, October 6, 2016
Who am I? How do I know if I'm really being the best me I can be?
And where do I feel most real?
Every time I come to Texas I expect a connection, a homecoming. And everytime I feel, well, the opposite. Grumbly and discontent and dizzy with all the height - which is really strange considering I'm from CO!
So I wander restlessly, trying to connect by exploring, trying to exercise enough to relax into my happier self. I sing in hallways and peer over railings. I try doors.
And then I come outside. And feel, well, first I feel warmer because the air conditioning inside makes me hope I packed enough winter clothes
- but I also feel ME again. Which is too bad cuz even if they'd let me sleep on this bench, I need to take a shower SOMETIME.
But I also still feel like an alien. And maybe it's the clammy air, or the faint (imagined?) scent of salt in the air. And maybe it's just the low level pressure. But I know this is not home.
I love hearing the Texas drawl. And I'm proud to be a Texas Rose by birth. And I always link Texas to my Mom - so maybe I'm trying to create a connection that was never there.
I am grateful for Texas. But Colorado and I are soulmates. So I'm going to have to end this.
Be well, Texas. It's not you, it's me. We'll always be friends, right?
I hope y'all have a great night.