Happiness Practice - Enhancing my Calm

I am amazing and awesome and wonderful and I DID it! Squeeeeee!

 And I am going to enhance my calm.

Old habits would include getting all jittery and excited and planning grand futures on this awesome feeling of success and connection.

And while old habits have brought me here (thank you, Lila) it is the changing of many of those habits that has brought me happiness.

And I don't like the jittery feeling. The breathlessness. The mind numbing plunge into infinite possibilities. It's distracting, and it makes it difficult to do simple things like make coffee, or put my shoes on.

I DO like feeling happy, excited, and awesome. And capable.

And when I take a deep breath, as I would when I'm stressed, and allow the feeling to just be the feeling; when I allow the joy and the accomplishment to be, to feel good and NORMAL, I can connect it to myself.

I can BE the person who does this kind of thing every day.

I am Lila. I am a Happiness Practitioner. I write, I sing, I coach and counsel and teach. I hug.
I create. It is amazing.

And I do it every day. Calm, focused, open and expansive, allowing, and happy. Every day.

So I take a deep breath. I feel the joy and the awesome and the happiness, but I release the jitters and the grandiose.

I enhance my calm.

And I go do it again.

I hope you're having a great day!
-Lila

Enlightenment is Awesome - Juggling Water

I am juggling. I know, I KNOW, if I just let my hands drop, the balls will stay in the air. In fact some of them will float away, because I am no longer trying desparately to attract them to my hand. I know that if I can remove myself from the chaos, get out of the storm all together, that I can be calm and happy and content and not so freaked and sad.

But even that perspective is deceiving. One has to be in the middle of the storm to view its effect. One has to feel the vibes to hear the music. One has to be in the water to be part of the flow.

So. To stand in the torrent. To stand. Not to float or be swept away, but to stand. An isle of calm. To let the water flow around me and through me. To let it flow through me while maintaining my self, my integrity, my needs and desires. Perhaps to even transform it, improve it, lighten it, assist it to be what it needs to be, what the race needs it to be, what my clan and community need it to be.

But, currently, the important part is to maintain my self.  There are likely other lessons later. But before I can let myself go, I must be myself fully in all situations. To tighten and release at the same time. To hold and let go. Am I letting too much go? I am still my core. As long as I am on this planet, I am me. With my bodily needs and my emotional needs and my chemical needs and my spiritual needs.

And that’s the end of the flow of consciousness for this moment. So let it be.

-Lila