Morning meandering - a cacophony (or symphony?) of thoughts

 Such a myriad of thoughts running through my head:

* living within this body is a daily practice; and just like brains or sexuality, there is no one true, set in stone, label that will follow this body for the entirety of its existence.

* if we're truly celebrating ALL diversity, why isn't there a white hetro-sexual male day?

* why does rooting for one person, team, group, perspective, political ideal automatically mean hate for all of the rest?

* We as human beings are still used to being in survival mode. It's how it's been for ages, yeah? Eons. But the human race has well and truly survived. Now it is time to turn to thriving mode. We don't need to spread or conquer. We've built our houses. Now it's time to make them comfortable. We've conquered all the lands (or most of them). The last frontier isn't space, it's inner being. Though I hesitate to say that because then there's going to be all sorts of machines and tests and pills and people trying to quantify and exploit the inner world.

* Why do I feel like I wasn't taught enough growing up? Sure there was math and english, history and social studies. But history is being rewritten and unwhite-washed; they changed math (happily one can't change how math actually works, simply how it's approached?); and honestly, what I learned in the class about politics doesn't seem to be relevant anymore. 

* was there a lot more respect for people 100 years ago? Even 50 years ago? Or were the communication distances simply farther apart, not instant? By the time we were able to express things, it could be done in a more "civilized" language? Or did people simply think differently because communication took longer, and thus required (or there was more time for) more thought?

* the coolest thing, to me, about the - i'm not sure how to phrase it - awareness "revolution" - the awareness of all the different ways that people feel (or don't feel) sexual and romantic attraction; the awareness of how many different ways people take in information, process it, express themselves; the awareness of how many different body types there are - and how many different ways we respond to pressure and medications and stimulus and herbs - the coolest thing about this awareness era is I don't feel like I have to fight anything anymore. I'm not breaking new ground when I express whatever facet of myself is feeling most triggered/stimulated today, because there's already something out there. I'm not leading a revolution or planting a flag or forcing awareness on anyone, not even myself. Which is awesome. Because everything is fluid. Everything! Labels help me work through a specific aspect of self, but then that label dissolves or is no longer relevant. 

I am looking forward to the day when there is no labelling, no coming out, no "normal". Where the journey is known to be all about figuring ourselves out, what we like, what we don't - from foods to clothes to people to how we contribute and connect with the world - each individually. There will be no freak flags to fly.

But then, will we still feel lost and alone because there is no banner of identity under which we can gather? 

Ugh. Trees are much easier than people. If you need me, I'll be out hugging one.

I hope your having a restful mind day,

-Lila

 

But wait, there's more!

 A friend and I were looking at things that are "blue shield." As I understand it, these are devices or objects which eminate frequencies to either counteract or overwhelm the EMF that is surrounding most of our lives these days.

The particular ones i looked at said they emitted frequencies that are similair to what is found in nature, and that our own... frequencies? energies?... would focus on or connect to those instead of to the more damaging EMF around us. 

And it sounds lovely, right? Nature frequencies. Yay! 

And I'm all about focusing on what brings you joy, on what works for you, on what you want. Well, on what I want.

But at the same time...

If you're like me, you have a cabinet full of pills and supplements you take every day. Aids to help the brain and body get through the day feeling a way we'd like to feel, aiding those things the body can no longer produce, be it hormones or hair growth or serotonin. Every time I set up those pills, I just sigh and want to cry a little. It seems ridiculous that I have to fill my body with foreign substances in order to feel closer to happy each day.

And I get the same feeling of frustration from the blue shield thing. Let's fill the air around us with MORE frequencies. Let's make it so crowded that, sure, we feel more energized and more in tune with our bodies, but we also feel claustrophobic and pressed and like there's no elbow room? To me (and this is probably just me) it sounds like the cure only contributes to other dis-eases. 

So what is the answer? I love my technology, I gotta say. I even have a way with it. It is just energy, after all. Granted it's energy programmed by humans, so...

But I also want peace in my brain. I want to feel space. I want the connection with nature to be what I choose. I want...

I want...

I want fewer products and more me?