Have I reached Keto-vana yet? How 'bout now?

 A couple of months ago, at the recommendation of my path partner, I started a "keto" food plan. 

I put keto in quotes because I am never one to follow someone's menu - partly because of my own health concerns - I'm already supposed to be on a low sodium, low fat diet for my heart's health. And I am a person who looks at something they're "Not supposed" to have and rebels - even to my own detriment.

But I was ready for a change. I was very uncomfortable with the way my body felt. And honestly, the keto plan just seemed like more salads and less bread and sugar. (Low carbs, medium protein, and lots of veggies.)

Oh my goodness. Do you know how many carbs are in, like, everything?! Heck, do you know how much sugar is in everything? Fruit. Fruit is a no-go on the keto diet!! And gluten free in NOT carb free.

My husband made me soup loaded with veggies - and the key (for me) is to blend the soup up. Yes, it looks like old fashioned gruel, but 1) it's easily digestible and consumable and 2) I don't have to see which veggies are in there and decide I don't want to eat it. (I have a hate/hate relationship with cauliflower, which seems to be the carb replacement go to.) 

And I grabbed salad bags and tuna fish and avocado spread and did three days with only coconut sugar and almond flour items. Yay me!

And then I had terrible, horrible, no good, very bad constipation. Extremely unpleasant. My intestines were bruised for weeks. (But isn't fiber supposed to be good for me and for moving things through?!! Perhaps not all at once.)

I persevered, with the help of some digestive aids, and waited and waited for that state of ketosis where my brain was going feel sharp and delightful. And I'm pretty sure I am still waiting.

Now it's possible that I have visited Ketosis-land a couple of times. I mean, I talk a lot more to my friends, and when I am focused, I'm pretty focused and flowing easily through work. But I also reach the hazy, disconnected state much more quickly. 

And then, as I rewatched the video, and did some more research, I realized I was missing the important ingredient of fat.

The Keto plan is low carb, medium protein, lots of veggies and high fat! What? How is that even....? But....

But, the purpose is to readjust the body so it gets its energy from the fat, instead of the sugars. So, as counter-intuitive as it sounds, I adjusted again. We'll see what happens next.

I'll probably never reach the ideal Ketosis - less than 20 carbs a day, bah! But I do feel better in my body. So I'm enjoying this journey and looking forward to really discovering what works for my body, and my brain, in the long term.