the Soapbox of Perception - The Chemistry of Tears

When someone we love dies, most humans express their emotions with tears.  Even if the death is a healing; even if we believe in a next life that is better, we cry.  The tears roil up out of some mysterious pit and head straight for the eyes.  Then they spread to the nose, the throat. A sound often emerges.  The body shakes.  The head aches.

We rarely get to control when we cry.  Sometimes we can control how much noise we make, whether it’s a few artistic tears or a flood.  Often, we can clench our teeth against the dying animal sounds.  The headache we can do little about.

But why do we cry?  Why does the emotional wave wash over us?  Why does the stomach clench and the breath hitch and the nose run?

Here is today’s theory, specifically related to death.

We create connections with each other, with family and friends and teachers and clients.  We form energetic bonds with many other beings.  Thus, when we think of said being, we reach out energetically, with heart or soul or mind or psychic field or what have you, and touch quickly upon that being.

When a being is alive, she is bound by the physical nature of the body, the limitations of the rules placed by time and space.  So when we think of the being, the energetic touch reveals information we are able to translate easily, even if we don’t know we’re doing it.

But when a being dies, her self is released from the physical form.  The soul or heart or consciousness or what have you becomes an energetic body.  This body, this state of being in whatever afterlife, is a body unbound.  It is a body that can experience, encompass, embrace, expand into a whole new existence.  And existence with which we, as bound humans, have little experience.

So when we think upon the being who is dead, we reach out energetically, with heart or soul or mind or psychic field or what have you, and we touch upon the awesomeness that is heaven or the universe or the cosmic mind or. . . or. . . or. . .  We touch upon the beauty we have no words for, the emotions we have no ability to feel, the richness that is overwhelming.  And we cry.  We cry from the wonder of it.  We cry from the shock of it.  We cry because we cannot experience the fullness of that existence.  We cry in fear and sorrow and wonder and desire and envy and anger and bewildered acceptance because that is how the human body releases the overflow of emotions.  When we are full physically, we belch.  When we are full emotionally, we cry.

So reach out to the beings who are no longer in this physical existence.  And when you cry at their memory, perhaps you are touching the other side and are full of the wonder.

testing the connection

Hello!  I have finally set up a website - www.unicallen.com. Yippee!

I am trying desperately to connect this blog to that website, but so far, because this blog was attached to a different google profile, I am having less luck than I would like.  So, I have added myself as an author.  (wow!) and we're going to see where this post gives notification.

I hope you're having a great day!

L

Enlightment is Awesome - Finding the Center

The best thing about being a teacher is how much I learn from myself. We teach most that which we need to learn most. We work our way through it for someone else and are therefore brought to the light of the situation ourselves.

Grief is tearing and painful. Joy can be as well. And when it feels like all is turbulence around you, the joy and the grief seem almost intrusive. It certainly feels fatalistic; the emotions so explosive, I feel my head might burst, my heart might stop, my breath might fail. I long for the quiet dignity of the single poetic tear glissading down my cheek.

By having been requested by circumstance to repeat and repeat and repeat the calming phrases and steps to calm decision making; by showing the way to the center of self; by spouting virtuously that the center is the best place to make decisions from, I have led myself (or stumbled along behind my student) finally to that calm and centered place.

And when the comfort food is churning acid, and the alcohol is vinegar, and the sad songs are annoying and the happy ones are raucous; when the words spoken and heard no longer mean anything, finally I come to the center and the peace. I fall away from the pressure. I deny it. I float free, down and in. Calm. Connected. Grateful that the violence has passed, if only for a moment. Every time the moment lasts longer.

The hardest part to learn - this calm, this center, is not a denial of the emotion, be it joy or grief. It is acceptance. Total acceptance. Complete acceptance. Acceptance deeper than the grief, than the joy. Deeper than the fear and the hope. Deeper than the learned perception of self.

Follow your breath in. And Down. Find your center. And discover a whole new world with me.

Enlightenment is awesome - The next step

There is a step beyond coping, dealing, surviving.  There is a step beyond the vortex of sadness or joy, horror or excitement.  There is a step beyond.  It's called living.

You can only grieve, replay, cling, bask, deny, rejoice for so long.  Then you have to return to the world.  You have to put food in the belly and clothes on the back.  You have to shower and drive and interact with others who are dealing with their own vortexes of celebration and sorrow.

It's natural to stop, to freeze, to fight or flight.  Then it's natural to breath again.  It's natural to laugh again.  It's natural to cry again.  It's natural to let the wounds heal, the lights dim, the vision turn to the next goal, the next horizon.  It's natural to move to the future.

Every day we deal with sorrows and joys, trauma vortexes of various colors and intensities.  And every day we step out of the drama, and continue living.

You can take the next step.  Walk this way.

-Lila

General Hello!

Hello.  I would like to apologize for my lack of posting.  As you can see by the influx of posts today, I have had something to say, but I've been busy on my Rune Reading Project. 

I have been doing a Rune Reading every day; telling it into the microphone and taking pictures, creating a slide show and turning it into a movie.  And I have (finally) been posting this on You Tube.   Right now, actually finding this seems to be an issue, as there is a Lila Allen who has a law office in California, and a Lily Allen who has taken over the search engine with music.

But if you go to you tube and type in Lila Evans Allen, you will find my channel.  Shrug.  Right now it's about actually doing the readings.  Later, I'll find a better way to make myself visible.

However, UnicAllen is still free and, well, unique.  That could mean something, couldn't it.  Sigh.

Enlightenment is Awesome - And Easy

November 2, 2012


Screw it. Screw it all. This struggling is pointless and painful and it’s not happy. I am a happy person. I am a person who prefers to be content. I push myself enough trying to get out there and do stuff. Why make it hard for myself? Why put obstacles in my way that serve no purpose but to make it harder?

Screw it. It’s time to make it easy.

Enlightenment is learning, that’s all. The light bulb is often used as a symbol for an idea. In the game "Life Quest" it’s used as a symbol for knowledge classes (as opposed to skill or self improvement). The dark ages are considered that because of the lack of education within the majority of the populace.

For some, learning is hard. For others, learning is easy. Conventionally. But psychology tells us there are different ways of learning. So instead of trying to memorize everything and regurgitate it back, let’s try hands on. If hands on isn’t your thing, what about audio input? How do you learn?

How do I learn? Sometimes I learn by doing, sometimes by talking about it, sometimes by reading about it. It often depends on the things that surround the subject. For example, I learn lots from fantasy books. But I have a very hard time reading factual books. Even if they are well written. Even if they have a lot to say. I’d rather have someone else tell me about it. Memoirs? Blech. Fantasy books written in memoir format? Sure. I admire Katherine Hepburn but I couldn’t read her biography to save my acting career. Shrug.

I also seem to learn by spouting, or in this case spewing, words upon the page until I come to an answer.

Hard means it’s not my path. I don’t have the skills or the knowledge or the enjoyment or the desire. IE: I’m a green skier in the black diamond world of technology.

To heck with doing it the hard way just because everyone else does. To heck with not doing something, not receiving something, because someone else has a lesson to learn. If I can’t do something one way, I’ll try it another. And another. And another. Until it’s easy.

I’m going to find a way to make it easy.

I’m going to take it easy.

It’s so easy.

Thank you,

Lila

I Can Rune your Life - November

The rune for November is Ehwaz.

This month, Ehwaz stands for blind faith.

In general, Ehwaz is a partnership, a symbiotic relationship, like that between horse and rider. For November, we are the rider. It’s blowing rain and it’s pitch dark. The air is so cold. We’re huddled into our extremely warm cloak, with the hood pulled well over our eyes, and our hands tucked into warm mittens.

For November, the universe is the horse, one of those big fuzzy clydesdales with huge hoofs and lots of fur. It’s prancing merrily forward, quite comfortable in the weather, quite sure of the way.

We can’t see a thing. We can’t feel our hands upon the reigns. And sometimes it feels the horse’s back is so broad, and we’ve been astride so long, that our behind has become numb and we’re sure to fall off any moment.

But we won’t. We can’t fall off the horse. We can jump, but we cannot fall. And even though we can’t guide the horse, we are heading forward, where we need to go. We just have to stay on. We need the horse. But the horse needs us too. That’s what symbiotic means.

Believe in the universe. And hold on. We’re almost there.